WELCOME, FRIEND! i’m emily paulsen

Growing up, playing Barbies in the basement was my favorite pastime. My best friend Rachel and I spent years indulging in the fashion, furniture, and friendship, playing house and building worlds everyday after school. And most of the time, we gave Barbie the cultural role we knew best - Mom. 

When I (eventually) grew out of the Barbie zone and into more real life activities, I noticed motherhood more and more but related to it less and less. I could never really picture myself as a mom, but since every real and fictional person I knew wanted to eventually be one, (and I personally had the most fun and devoted mom ever) I figured one day I’d wake up and the desire would just be there. 

Maybe when I was the right age. Had the right job. Lived in the right city. Found the right partner. 

But as the years ticked by and I grew into myself, the motherhood dream never dropped in. 

In my early 20s I started to think seriously about my life plan, as 20 somethings do, and my future goals felt so clear. A devoted friend, bold career woman, city dweller and loving wife, but no matter how many times I expanded the daydream, there were never any kids in it. I considered the reality that becoming a mom may NEVER be for me and it felt like a huge…relief. 

I thought I discovered the best-kept secret of womanhood and I talked about it to anyone who would listen. “Hey girl, I don’t know if you know this, but we don’t have to have kids. You’re welcome.” 

Spoiler alert: My grand discovery was met with mixed reviews.

People were confused why I would “give up” my chance to have a family and I was confused why nobody seemed to feel like me. I felt misunderstood, genuinely surprised, and apologetic that the opinions I was sharing were inadvertently hurting people’s feelings. Ooph. Some of those conversations still sting.

Through my 30s my approach has tamed from passionate declaration to passive conversation, but the surprise people express at my decision has never fully gone away.  

When dating my now husband Dave turned serious, people warned him that throwing away his chance to have children by being with me was a huge mistake. The “do you have kids yet” question still comes up in professional and personal conversations. Loved ones still double-check that I’m supppppper sure before I exit my peak childbearing years.

The decades of exposure to this ubiquitous motherhood storyline made me crave a space that illuminated a different perspective, the childfree perspective, as an equally smart and worthy choice. Maybe you’ve craved a space like that, too. 

Life is complicated, and everyone’s experience is different, but not wanting kids is not a sign that there’s something wrong with you, and it certainly doesn’t mean you have to hold these feelings on your own. 

This podcast is a safe space to celebrate our individuality even when it doesn’t align with societal norms, and to embrace the curiosity that led us to be free thinkers in the first place. I promise to work hard to ensure everything you find here feels like a worthwhile addition to your day, and I am grateful that you found me. Cheers to living a bold, curious life…our way.  

Stuff you might want to know but don’t really want to ask:

When I’m not busy not having kids, I’m . . .

into

SECOND-HAND SHOPPING

LIFTING WEIGHTS

COMPLIMENTING STRANGERS ON THE STREET

HOSTING PARTIES FOR FRIENDS & FAMILY

EXPLORING SHOPS & MUSEUMS

RENOVATING & DECORATING OUR 130-YEAR-OLD HOME

working on

Asking my husband about his day before sharing mine

CLOSING MY COMPUTER AT 6PM (PIPE DREAM)

SEEING MY OUT-OF-STATE FAMILY MORE

AVOIDING FAST FASHION

READING STUFF INSTEAD OF scrolling THE INTERNET

LETTING SOMEONE ELSE HAVE THE LAST WORD

WEEKLY EPISODES DELIVERING YOUR DOSE OF

  • FRESH PERSPECTIVE

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